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My Sister Loves Me

May 17, 2013 Leave a comment

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I forgot my lunch at home one day. And my little sister saw that I forgot it, so brings it to me at work, and also packs me a portioned out package of Cheetos (since she knows I try to watch what I eat) and she also packs me one white powdered donut because “it’s okay to indulge in moderation”. She’s so cute. I love her so much.

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Lunch Outing

April 16, 2013 Leave a comment

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Went to lunch with Grandma and Uncle today. We ate Japanese food. I had deep fried soft shell crab and broiled Saba. Everything was SO DELICIOUS!

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Overwhelmed

March 28, 2013 2 comments

Hooookay.

Lately, I’ve been feeling very overwhelmed. It has most recently culminated to it’s worst and highest point ever.

I’ve been really stressed out lately because my grandma has broken her hip and she has slight dementia, and so she has become dependent on 24 hour care–mostly provided by myself. Due to circumstance, everyone in my family, except me, has somewhere to be whether it be work or school. I am currently job hunting, so I am the only one available to be home all day to watch and care for my grandma. I make/feed her three meals a day, pick-up/organize/dispense all her medications, make sure she gets exercise, wash all her clothes and bedding, change her diapers, bathe her, and make sure to help her when she walks around and make sure she uses her walker when walking around as well. I also take her to her doctor appointments, keep track of any nurse visits, and make sure all her bills are paid. She makes things very difficult for me because she refuses to eat because she’s not hungry, refuses to get out of bed to exercise because she just doesn’t want to, and refuses to take a bath because she doesn’t want to. Don’t get me wrong. She is perfectly capable of doing these things, and even listens to strangers, like nurses, when they tell her to do these things. No argument or anything. I don’t know why she’s like this, but if it is me, she usually ends up turning it into an argument. I talk to her–beg her–PLEAD with her–to do these things for me, but she just will not do these things. Only once in a great while I can get her to do it without an argument. This is very much BURNING ME OUT like nothing I’ve ever experienced before. 24/7 taking care and waiting on a grown adult. Anyway, it’s just very stressful and I get very little sleep.

On top of this, I have been job searching and applying everywhere that has an entry level position that I qualify for. I also try to look for full time positions, with medical, at larger, more established companies in which I have opportunity to advance my career. I really did not enjoy being a secretary and feel like I’m wasting my time at jobs where there is no opportunity for advancement. I love to learn and keep myself updated on new technology, techniques, information and applications and I’d like to be able to put that to good use. Within the last month, I have applied at about 12 different jobs. Both part time and full time and in all different pay ranges. They are all entry level positions that I qualify for. I got an interview at one company but have not heard back from them, got “sorry we filled the position letters” from three companies, and the rest, I have not gotten any response from at all. I have LOTS of bills I need to pay. Also, I already feel very behind in life because all my friends are moving on to bigger and better things. I am educated. I have excellent references. I have a good personality. I have good work ethics. I have a lot of desirable qualities as a worker or employee, but I still am not able to get a decent job. So I am very discouraged at this point.

I also pretty much take care of and manage my family. I pay the bills. I make sure the house is in running order. I do whatever needs to be done to take care of my grandma, dad, sisters, and self.

In addition to these stressors, I have to manage my relationships with the BF and friends. This is harder than it seems with those other, larger, stressors.

The BF and I don’t have much time to do things for us since I or we are always doing things to take care of everyone else. Everything becomes nit-picky. I even had to severe ties with a good friend for a no good reason because of all the stress.

I feel really down in the dumps right now.

I hope things pick up soon or…. I really don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m. So. Tired…

Sorry for the depressing post, but this helps me to organize my thoughts and feelings and also helps to let me let out some stress. Thanks guys.

You Know What This Means…

December 28, 2012 Leave a comment

I saw this on Instagram and had to share. I rarely ever repost or want to share these things, but this one was so pertinent to me andmy friends and family. LOL Everyone knows what this look means in a handful of different situations… ESPECIALLY my BFF, Vanessa, from Apostrophe The Cat! And it’s usually something REALLLLLY funny too! LOL

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Christmas Gifts

December 25, 2012 Leave a comment

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Got some really thoughtful gifts this year!! Loved them all!

One was a Hunger Games themed bracelet that has a quote from the book… The “real or not real” quote… Love it. (That was from Vanessa).

Another was a Clarisonic brush for my face. My sister bought this for me because I had been talking with her about skin care. And it was something I’d never buy for myself so I thought it was a nice present.

And another gift was from the BF and my other sister. It was a Garmin Forerunner runner’s watch. It keeps track of your heart rate, time, and distance. I can’t wait to try it out!!!

So grateful for all my gifts.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!! Hope you all had a wonderful one and got to spend time with loved ones!!!!

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Christmas Photos At The Beach

November 27, 2012 Leave a comment

My brother, sister-in-law, and little nephew have been taking pictures for their yearly Christmas card for the past few years. This year, they decided to take it at the beach. What a beautiful day! And they got some beautiful shots! I can’t wait to see their card this year!

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Life Thus Far

October 23, 2012 1 comment

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Sometimes, I sit here and think, “if I were to die tomorrow, I’d be dying an incomplete person.” There are so many things that I haven’t had the chance to experience yet that I want to. Some are totally within my control. Which is fine because I can work on that–I AM working on that. But some are only within other people’s control–in which case, I have no ability to control. How would these people feel if I died tomorrow and they knew that they just didn’t try hard enough? Or I died tomorrow and they never did or said all they could for me? Despite me doing everything and bending over backwards for them? Or chose to be ignorant to the fact that I exist in their life and that they should care, do something about it, or reciprocate?

Sometimes, I think the only way to show these people, to really make them see what they’re doing to me, would be to die. Because only then would they ever regret, think about, or realize that everything else was trivial and all I ever asked for was what was what was essential.

I better stop before I start rambling.

Moral of the story?

I guess it would be a “carpe diem” of sorts. Carpe diem. Make sure you are doing everything within your power to make the most of your life. And make sure you don’t just wait around for everyone else. If you’re not appreciated, loved, or recognized for everything you are, don’t just stand there and take it.